'Love Thyself'

Hey! Long time no see...things have been absolutely crazy: let me fill you in cuz I know you're dying to know!!! haha

First Off: I got my tattoo I was telling you about earlier. Here are some pix (p.s. it hurt like hell: like 10x worse than my first one)

It reads love thyself and the second picture shows the plaement on my back I'm in love with it

College: college is starting to suck(like it always does when it comes to school) I got a D on an anatomy test which REALLY bummed me out cause I tried really hard but I'm trying to stay positive.

T: As with T and I...things are still going okay... nothings happened new really. (Love my short blogging huh?)

London: SO we got to keep my niece for the first time tonight heres an adorable picture of her and I....

she is the light of my world and she isn't even technically mine (i'm kinda thinking about holding her ransom though lol haha jk jk)

Uhm I can't think of anything else...sorry for the bum blogging again ;)

love!!!! xoxoxo

Holy Buckets! Who knew college was gonna be soooo time consuming? I seriously need to catch up on everything....

College: Okay classes are going good, just very long. I love my intro to pscyh class. My professor admits to being sexist. Normally I would be offended and talk back to stand up for the females in my class, which is the majority, but he is very funny, down to earth, and he makes it a joke and lets us have a chance to prove him wrong lol. Sociology S.U.C.K.S! My professor talks like she is a show biz host....she stretches out the end of all her words. Sociology is just a discussion class and ILOVEIT! I get to voice my opionion as much as I want and I love that. Finally, Anatomy is kicking my butt still. I can't do anything right in that class. So pray for me!

T and Me: As for the lovely T and I....we are practically in love all over....I think he finally pulled his head out of his you know what. Seriously, he helps with homework and takes me places and actually WANTS to spend time with me. I'm pretty much in love again...I don't feel trapped or worried about anything. It' all really good.

ME: As for me, kidney stones prevail... I seriously have never been in so much pain and I've been in a car accident, I've had a tattoo, I was a self injurer for many years and these stones are what makes me REALLY feel pain. Holy Buckets! I'm on pain pills and they aren't working so I should go back to Dr. Gorgeous lol
I'm getting my second tattoo this weekend or next.... Between my side and my spine right underneath my ribs down to my hip will read "DILIGE TE IPSAM" which means "Love Thyself" in latin. I'm doing so when I look at the scars on my wrists and arms I can remember to love my body and take what I have learned from my self injury and love every inch of me. Scars have a past and so do i....

sorry its been so long <3 ya! xoxo

SO sorry!

Okay, so I decided I probably need to catch you up on everything.

First off, school is kicking my butt. I've been constantly doing homework. I am a good student ;D I aced all my papers and tests this week so I got lucky. yay!

I went to the Emergency Room a couple nights ago cause my kidney stones were so bad. They also said I had a cyst rupture so I definitely was in pain. They gave me a shot in the butt and some good meds but I'm sleepy ALL the time. So when I'm not fighting sleep in class I'm sleeping at home lol

As for T and I, I told him I needed some time to think about what MY future holds. I took a step back from him and he fought it but he gets it. I feel he needs to grow up for one and I need to move out. I need to know he is going to have a job, and want to move out. So right now, we are on a little 'break' I guess you'd say. I love him and I miss him. I'm missing everything he did for me. Maybe I just needed some time to think about our future you know? I'm not really sure...who knows. Anyhoooo.... I'm off to bed...imagine that.

Sorry for my boring life...much <3 xoxo

Nonchalant

I got nothing really lol! Nothing really has changed since the last time I posted. Other than the fact I have KIDNEY STONES AT 18~! It sucks so bad. I went to the doctor on Monday and they did all these creepy tests and things. So I got some pain. Lets drink so nasty water and piss these rocks out! whoop whoop haha

College is good....but it's keeping me from you haha! I have a powerpoint and 3 papers due next week so it may be awhile before I get to you again.

T and I are doing fantastically! I love going to bed and waking up knowing he would do anything for me. I called him two nights ago at 1:30 in the morning crying in pain. He had to be up at 5 for work but drove all the way into town to rub my back and side until I fell asleep. It's perfect. :D

Anywhoo...sorry for the badblogging haha. P.s. Kylee!!!-if you are looking for a crazy book to read I just finished one that was amazing! It is really insane, crazy, psycho....I'm not sure what you like to read but its good . Let me know if you're interested! much <3 xoxo