Horror Movie :/

I need to update you on a lot of things! This is a long but interesting story that I could use some advice on....

Last night was a living R rated movie. T and I have been, well, not on the right track. And I told him I needed to end things for my benefit. No matter how much I love him I had to let him go. I have college in 3 days and I don't need stress. Things just weren't working and nothing was changing. If it was meant to be things would work themselves out.

So when I told him, I've never seen T act this way, he begged. He told me he would do the little things. He told me he would be apart of my life. He told me I was his world. I've heard it before...many many times. So I stood my ground and told him that we've been thru this. He than gets defensive and tells me he isn't going to stop seeing me and that he WON'T let me go. Mmmkay.... so I almost fell back into the trap. But I caught myself and told him I wanted a few days to sort things out.

At that point, I wasn't home. I was hanging with one of my girls and two of our guy friends...just being funny and having fun. It was the most fun I'd had in a long time. T text me at 2 in the morning asking me where I was and who I was with and how I wasn't home yet....like he was checking up on me. GIVE ME A BREAK! I just wanted to be away from him for a while ya know?! To see what else my life has to offer... so I never replied....bad mistake.

Now it's about 2:45 in the morning and my friend(girl) and my other friend (guy) decided we were gonna go be children of the corn haha....I'm an Iowa girl...GIVE ME A BREAK! LOL! We love going into corn fields at night haha. Anywhoo....nevertheless, as we pull into some random field entrance I see T's lights in the distance, and I kick my car out of there as fast as I could....the nightmare begings.

He chases me for 100 hours it seems like...calling me and leaving me vm's about how I'm probably screwing another guy and blah blah. I was terrified! So I drove back into town and kept driving cuz the guy in my car was gonna beat him up. T pulls on the grass to drive beside me! Almost rams my car! I was hysterical! I told him to go home. . . I'd go to his house and talk to him...second mistake.

I went to his house after apologizing to my friends about my psycho ex. As soon as I walk in he hits the wall and goes downstairs so I leave...guess what happened?! oh c'mon just guess.....you got it! 3 seconds later he was right behind me calling me.

Jess: "what!"
T: "what the hell are you doing?!"
Jess: "I told you I wasn't going to talk to you if you were gonna act like that. I was going there to talk about us and you scare me so I'm going home."
T: "Jessica, please come back to my house. We will sit down and talk and I wont raise my voice or anything. I promise."
Jess: "No, I gave you a chance. Matter of fact, I've given you 5 years."
T: (crying) "Please."

So as you can guess we went and talked about it. I don't really remember what we talked about because I was violently shaking for most of it. Things are okay, but not. Not after he put me and my/his friends in danger. we have a lot to work on....please pray for us. <3xoxo